I am a Gothic ludologist (a fancy way of saying I study horror videogames). This longread is an extension of my independent research, and examines my connection with the subject matter. It explains why mutual consent, power exchange and gender equality are paramount, but how this attitude is societally on the backfoot. Atypical stances on power, from mommy doms to cat boys, are ostracized by the "silent majority" (re: cis white heterosexual men) as castrating and alien. I shall explore this persecution phenomena as well. This post is divided into the following sections: Me, Pansexual: This section covers my pansexuality. This includes the people I'm attracted to—who they are, why they matter, and what struggles they face. Mommy Doms and Metroidvania: I submit to female forms of power—mommy doms and Metroidvania—within boundaries of mutual consent. I explain what these things are, why I study them, and what the appeal in our arrangement is; I also explore how various
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